A Mother's Journey with her Daughters Addiction
A Mother's Journey with her Daughters Addiction
I remember one night, when Brittany lived at home, that she came home in the middle of the night, totally messed up out of her mind. Biscuit our dog was barking, Brittany was loud and talking to herself, so we woke up, along with my youngest daughter. “Mommy, what is wrong with Mimi”? (She called her Mimi since a baby, …
“Why can’t they just stop using?” “Why does it have to by my kid?” “How can they do this to us?”. These are questions I consistently hear from parents and loved ones, WE ARE ADDICTS AND ALCOHOLICS. IT IS A DISEASE. Listen, none of us just wake up one day and think.. I am going to try heroin today. NO that’s …
Nodding out, shooting up, going on a run, trap house…these were terms all too familiar to me now, in this world of addiction, which my daughter Brittany struggled with. Words that were so unknown to me prior, but yet, now, were a part of my everyday language. She was so deep into her addiction and I was so deep into …
I was always so desperate in my addiction. Desperate for a fix, desperate to not be sick, desperate to not feel the pain anymore. I dug a hole so deep that I never thought I could climb out of. My desperation and low self-worth caused me to do things I never imagined I would be capable of. I went from …
After we discovered my daughter Brittany was using heroin again, we had some hard choices to make. We knew she couldn’t live in our home anymore. After all, we also had a 10-year-old daughter, we had made family rules about consequences and I had to keep our home a safe haven. But the thought of having her not in my …
I woke up this morning, with no intention of writing. But as I was doing my morning scroll of Facebook, I realized something. We are an incredibly special group of moms, united by addiction, into a sisterhood of a lifelong bond. Some of us have lost loved ones. Some of us have loved ones still struggling. Some of us have …
I did everything with it and nothing without it. It was my best friend, the love of my life, my soul mate. When I found heroin, I was complete. Nothing else mattered. I didn’t have a care in the world… Until I was sweating and shaking, until I couldn’t get out of bed without it, until it caused me to …
I remember getting kicked off my softball team. My years of being a straight edged, athletic, follow the rules student were rapidly dwindling. I had been skipping school so often that my grades had slipped from A’s to D’s. I maybe went to one practice a week and my love for the game had faded. My addiction was slowly creeping …
I was the PTO mom, the carpool mom, the Brownie leader. We ate family dinners at the table, taught our children manners and took family vacations. My husband and I were blessed to have very good jobs. My daughter, Brittany, the beautiful girl in the photo, was the honor roll student, the volunteer at the city parks and recreation department …
I have been telling clients that “you can’t schedule crisis on a calendar,” when they call for the first time. But the first two weeks of April have been booked solid with seven referrals and a few more families still working on their plan to no longer support the addiction. One family, I consulted with recently had contacted several interventionist …